My child and adolescence development class is fascinating. I'm reading a paper on child attachments, and it's hitting home. I always wondered why the hell I grew up to be so isolated...My best friend and I barely talk now a days, I have no friends in school, my realest connections cme from MM. My family is very loving though, there was never any abuse, I was never told that I can't do something or other....However reading this text, memories come surfacing up. I was always told that I'm too moody and should control myself, I'm selfish and should think more of other people, I need to put effort and learn how to make new friends, it's hard for everyone....As a result, I am super non confrontational, I almost never voice my dislike of something, if I do, it's passive-aggressive. I always try to get out of the way of strangers, step away if someone needs to pass, even if there is a ton of space...Let people cut me in line...Let professors think I'm mediocre, and back it up in any way I can...When I do get attached to people, I'm very dependent....It's hard for me to voice what I actually want, because I was always told to control my impulses and moods....ha, we're all fucked up even by the most well meaning parents.

Of course it is not all my mom's fault. I'm old enough to provoke change if I really want it...I think joining MM was a pretty life changing move. =)