Every one has doubts...everyone has aspirations.
I wish I was a femme fatale, or a girl in a religious household with defined limits as to what I can be. Instead I feel like my potential is endless, but I'm not fulfilling it, I'm failing and failing...And will end up in the middle of America packing tomatoes...Of course if there is a loved person next to me, a child may be, than all of that will not be so grim....but if i settle for everything, then I'm so fucked. I don't feel like i'm in control of my life...i just need to breathe....in and out. I'll be fine.


I am so angry....I don't like it...